old emails have me bugging out. a year ago my toes were touching the edges of new love. now the water in that pool is murky and uninviting.
still, i'm dying to swim.
breath held, underwater sluggishly swimming through it all. hoping the water hides these tears that keep falling.
lungs filled with love.
suffocating on it.
one year ago he swore he'd follow me to Sheol Hell.
well i've been here painting my nails & still.....i'm alone.
i guess this is my long awaited break down. avoided it for so long and now it's wrapped around my whole body.
give me a moment to ummm grieve.
allow me to hurt, cry, & miss him freely.
i'm entitled to this.