Monday, January 28, 2013
never realized I was so cold, until summer came...
all of a sudden I began to feel again.
and I didn't realize it hurt so badly,
until the tears wouldn't stop falling.
let's be honest, I've been addicted to the pain you serve.
sick it seems, that the pain even felt good.
anything to feel connected,
to know that something still existed here.
like playing in the fallen leaves of autumn,
pleased to know beauty once flourished.
even if all that was left were barren branches.
unsure how it happened, but I'm grateful to be free.
no dramatic exit.
simply decided to no longer exist to you.
I've given me, wholly.
allowed you to invade my most amazing spaces.
mind. body. heart. spirit.
it was you ...to the core of me.
but I grew weary, pretending to be blind to vibrant colors.
hues that looked a lot like lies and deception,
ignored rainbows of wasted time and disrespect.
all because I was obsessed with the rain.
passionate storms of you,
left parts of me absolutely damaged.
but I'm free.
and fairer weather is on the gloomy horizon.