PLAYLIST: if I had one wish.....

Brandy definitely sang my life on "wish your love away" off her new album Two Eleven. It is slightly tragic when something and someone that was once the source of good feelings, becomes the cause of hurt. the kind of hurt where you start believing in magic. believing that if you wish hard enough, that love and all things tied to it will go away....that is soooome kind of space to be in. When you question everything that the person ever said, like was that real??? Who can act that wonderfully? Act like they loved, cared, wanted you? that is just...strange to me. But I am beyond grateful for music....it truly heals. I have reached the point of no return and I am so happy to be here. I love how God has this crazy, amazing way of revealing things at the perfect time. Like just when I wanted to text and tell him how much I miss him, how much I love him....pictures surface, reminding me exactly why I made the decision to really really walk away. good looking out universe, you really spared me some hurt feelings. the way I see it, I no longer have to wish this love away....seems to be long gone. crazy how something that could have been so right was such a sham. lol. i don't think I have ever been deceived soooooo much. THAT blows my mind. the words...the lies. someone I thought I knew, thought I could trust, thought was my FRIEND....really created a web of lust, deceit, confusion, lies, disrespect, etc etc. no wonder they say the line between love and hate is so thin, I'm on the brink. but I know I can't allow myself to go there. "Keep your heart sweet". this can't be worth that much energy, I refuse to give this anymore of me. no anger, no bitterness, no hate....no worries. matter of fact, i forgive you. wishes may not work, but prayer does. I'm not even going to allow Mia to be consumed in any negative emotions or thoughts. it's all good, have a blessed life. xo, McK

PLAYLIST: video of the year

"it's like screaming, but no one can hear. you almost feel ashamed, that someone could be that important...that without them you feel like nothing. no one will ever understand how much it hurts. you feel hopeless...like nothing can save you. then when it's over and it's gone, u almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back....so that you could have the good"



that opening monologue.....the video....the song....all reminders that EVERYONE loves and EVERYONE hurts.

it's real. it's potent. it's everything.

love.



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: just ask me....and i will. STAY

you're the only one i want to put up with.
put us back together again....it's all up to you.

ask me and i will....stay.

i love you.



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: i am here....again

Here I am again asking questions,
Waiting to be moved.
I am so unsure of my perception,
What I thought I knew I don't seem to
Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?
Back to the old me and

God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, please.

I am such a fool
How did I get here?
Played by all the rules
Then they changed
I am but a child to your vision
Standing in the cold and the rain
Lost here in the dark
I can't see my foot to take a step,
What is happening?
Oh, this hurts so bad. I can hardly breathe.
I just want to leave so...


God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please,
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, oh, please, please.

God please hear my call.
I am afraid.
Love has turned me cold,
I need your healing.
Please, please, please, please, please, please.


--how did i get here....again?



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: thank you.... for making me a woman

this was the love that truly "grew me up". when I say I gave 100 % of me in this relationship, I mean JUST that. I am satisfied knowing I was committed to my commitment to him. *smile* i am so very thankful for this experience. right now, i can honestly say that i am comfortable closing this chapter of my life. Will I feel like this tomorrow? Maybe, maybe not. does it hurt? OF COURSE! but i am HAPPY. i am so faith-filled and dripping in God's ooey gooey goodness, that i can't help but to continue on with a smile on my face. i pray for ALLLLL of the greatness in the world to be bestowed upon him. that would just be the strawberry on top of my love sundae....if he is truly happy, then i am BEYOND happy.

"at this moment, all that i am good for is love" -nnamdi okafor

truer words i have never heard. i don't have it in me to be angry, bitter, depressed, sad, etc. i am indebted to love....that's all i can give and receive.

go.grow.live.LOVE.


so thank you Cyrah Austin Hawkins, loving you made me a woman.

xoxo,
MiaMcK






Sometimes I wonder… Do you
Even recognize the woman
That’s standing in front of you

Sometimes I wonder… Do you
Even care or realize why I took care of you
‘Cuz you’re my heart
You are my soul
You’re my other half
Without you I can not be whole baby
So far apart
I just don’t know
What drove us apart in the first place
Now I know why

These tears I cry … sure won’t be the last
They will not be the last .. no
This pain inside… never seems to pass
It never seems to pass… me by

So I thank you
Said I thank you
Yes I thank you
For making me a woman

Sometimes I wonder… could she be
More of a woman to you thank you were a man to me
Sometime I wonder .. why me
I’m here miserable while you’re out living your fantasies
And didn’t care

‘Cuz you’re my heart
You are my soul
You’re my other half
Without you I can not be whole baby
So far apart
I just don’t know
What drove us apart in the first place
Now I know baby why

These tears I cry … sure won’t be the last
They will not be the last .. no
This pain inside… never seems to pass
It never seems to pass… me by

So I thank you
Said I thank you
Yes I thank you
For making me a woman

One thing I learned in life
We all gotta go through to survive
I hope she’s happy
‘Cuz you’re the chapter that I’ll be closing
Hope you’re happy
‘Cuz once my door closes it won’t be open

These tears I cry … sure won’t be the last
They will not be the last .. no
This pain inside… never seems to pass
It never seems to pass… me by

So I thank you
Said I thank you
Yes I thank you
For making me a woman


*estelle, hunteeeee you DID this joint!!! so reminiscent of old school Mary J. Blige...but smoother, more velvety. love love love love you so much for singing my life to me*

PLAYLIST: simply put...can we?

this song says it all.


xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: simple mathematics....

in my humble opinion, this new ballad is right on track to become my favorite song. *gasp* yes yes it's true. this coveted spot has long been occupied by Dangerously In Love, so the song that was able to knock that classic out of it's spot couldn't have been by anyone but Bey.

i first heard the song via a video uploaded by Jay Z of Bey rehearsing the song backstage at American Idol. the pure emotion with which she sang was infectious. she brought tears to my eyes almost immediately. if i wasn't already in love, hearing this song would have inspired me to seek, learn, and understand this deep "love" thing she sang about so beautifully.

a few people on twitter adamantly disagreed with my claim to put "1+1" on the level of DIL (dangerously in love). but for me, 1+1 is the grown up version of DIL. 1+1 happens when you've been heartbroken a time or two. 1+1 is the result of age, a bit of wisdom, a couple of tears, and a whole lot of sleepless nights. 1+1 came about after the relationship failed, succeeded, got off track, then was resurrected because of something that goes beyond all reason and understanding. 1+1 exudes LIFE and LOVE. DIL was young love, full of fantasy and naivete. DIL was that wet behind the ears love, the love that you experienced before you actually knew YOU. one is not better than the other. just different. perfect for the different stages of life. if you have yet to experience that gut wrenching love, perhaps you won't fully understand or appreciate 1+1. and that's fine. mark my words though, once it happens to you, you will be searching the internet for this song so you can sway along to the flow. you will turn the song on and truly feel every word of it. and when she sings "and i dont know much about fighting but i, i know i would fight for you. just when i ball up my fist i realize, im laying right next to you"... when you hear that you're going to think about all of the times when you were prepared to go to war for your love.

every guttural note, every ache, and every inflection will bring a flicker of a memory of this love.

i can only pray that you all experience this.
it's beautiful.
painful.
scary.
exhilarating.

enjoy it. every single moment. bad, good, all of it. it's worth it. i promise.

xoxo,
MiaMcK




needless to say, i am EXTREMELY excited for this album! "4" comes out June 28. i love that the album's name holds so much significance to Bey. she and jay z's birthdays both fall on a 4th. they got married on a 4th and this is her 4th album. i can only imagine how personal and amaaazing this album is going to be. i am betting this will be her best.

PLAYLIST: Umbrella Much???

as you all may know, i am on a slow journey of toleration for my dear Creepy Minaj. i have nothing against her image or who she is as a person....i think she is doing wonders for a lot of silly little girls' self-esteem (in her own twisted way). as far as talent goes, she's entertaining to say the least. i would never knock her hustle, cuz she IS doing it. but fan? not much.

and rihanna.....my boo rihanna. i ADORE this chick head to toe. she's the less amazing version of my Beyonce' adoration. #justSayin.

this song is IT for me....had me ready to put on some poppin lipstick, a freakum dress, & go BE in some club somewhere. YAAAAAAAAAAS!!!!!!!!! put my hand in the air & reject all the scumbags trying to get my attention. #soWhat cuz it's raining men!!!!!



"i aint even worried bout u homie cuz there's plenty mo fish in the sea.....they fallin like the rain, so we aint runnin out"

im bumping this hard until 2011 hits!!!!


enjoy blogger babies!



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: flip, roll, pop.

in the words of ME.... FLIP, ROLL, POP. flip ur hair, roll your eyes, and pop your gum. that's exactly what i'll be doing as i jam to this new joint by Willow Smith.



to the disgusting people who talk badly about this LITTLE GIRL, you should be ashamed of yourselves. i couldn't believe the comments i read on the gossip blogs about this song and child. why would you call a child WACK?? in what world is that okay? you've got to be kidding!

anywho, i support the Smith family! love love love them!

so go 'head Little Willow, do your thang! i dig you...in all of your laced up pants glory!



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: Good Fridays...

Kanye has decided to drop a new song every friday until his album comes out in december, yay for us! i must admit, "Monster" hasn't grown on me yet but "Devil in a New Dress" had me at HELLO! haha. i have been listening to it on repeat....saying i relate is stating the obvious.

click HERE for the mp3.

"May the Lord forgive us
May the gods be with us
And that magic hour I seen good Christians make rash decisions
Oh she dooo it, what happened to Religion?
Oh she lose it
She putting on her make up
She casually allure
Text message break ups, the casualty of tour
HOW SHE GON' WAKE UP AND NOT LOVE ME NO MORE?
I thought I was the ass hole, I guess it’s rubbing off
Hood phenomenom, the Lebron of rhyme
Hard to be humble when you stuntin on a jumbotron
I’m looking at her like “this what you really wanted, huh?”
Why we argue anyway? oh I forgot, it's summatime...."

*sidebar* he went IN on twitter last nite/this morning. kept it very real about his year of shun. "i accept the idea (ideal) that perception is reality" LAWD, have i NOT been saying this for the past 2 months? glad Kanye sees my point. as unfair or unreal the perception may be...it tends to be someone's reality. that's just the truth!!!

anywho, enjoy blogger babies!




xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: kandi koated & loveLess

laaaaaawd Kandi over here singing about leaving him if he doesn't do what he did to get her to keep her. this woman KNOWS she can write a damn song!!

"long talks, we used to do it. compromise, we used to do it......i'm bout to leeeeeave leeeeeave you."

girl girl girl, you better sing my life. she said "i put this on my mama, u keep doin the same thang...silence gonna be your best friend. cuz i wont be here & this house gonna b so cold without me here. you aint got to worry no more. i'm packin up my bags & im out the front door. byyeeee byeee byeee" YAAAAAAASSSSSSS!!! sing it bEtch!

compliments.affection. & passion. used to do it. *sigh*





#shoutout to dropthevibe.com for supplying this song to my blackberry MONTHS ago back when it was known as "Hurt". i feel so ahead of the game :-)

Loving You No More....

when you get hurt by the one you're living for, pain can make you wanna love no more...



"the same one i'm missin is basically the reason i became somethin different. it's just that i remember me before & if you can do the same baby then we'd be for sure..."






xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: When a Woman Loves...

hopefully she doesn't get fed up.
cuz we all know what happens then.
#preachMia

lmbo.

nah but welcome back R.Kelly. i love the old school soul in this song. def on repeat.







xoxo,
MiaMcK




p.s. i don't mean to play devil's advocate, buuuut i feel like Trey Songz would have murdered this song. #justsayin

PLAYLIST: lovesCold...

i feel like Will is a genius.
he is not only one of my bestest friends EVER,
he is majorly talented.

i must warn you....this is a tease. only 1 minute and 44 seconds of greatness.





"im feelin like ur purposely hurtin me, unconcerned with how i feeeeeel...."




enjoy blogger babies!



xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: Adele does me so right....

You say it's all in my head
And the things I think just don't make sense
So where you been then? Don't go all coy
Don't turn it round on me like it's my fault
See I can see that look in your eyes
The one that shoots me each and every time
you know i know just how you feel 'cause honey I'm startin' to feel that way too when you

grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

These days when I see you
You make it look like I'm see-through
Do tell me why you waste our time
When your heart ain't in it, and you're not satisfied
You know I know just how you feel
I'm starting to find myself feeling that way too

When you grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

Time and time again, I play the role of fool
(Just for you)
Even in the daylight when you think that
(I don't see you)
Try to look for things I hear but our eyes never find
'Though I do know how you play

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her




xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: what i'm listening to...

blame me for having faith in this relationship....




i don't know what this war's about, been through too much not to work it out.....i am your woman so show some respect & treat me as such...





i want this fiasco to end, so baby we can start all over again...

PLAYLIST: I May Be Biased...

but im not stoooopid.
and if you don't listen to this song & then hit replay a few times after....
then YOU my dear friend are STOOOOOPID!

Drake...Jhene....written by Micah Powell. "July"
okay so just because i have known Micah (@micahfonecheck)basically my whole entire life, doesn't mean im passing off my opinion as FACT.
but FACT is, this song is DOPE boy fresh.

#thatisall
#thatiseverything




enjoy (on repeat) blogger babies!


xoxo,
miaMcK

PLAYLIST: intergalatic love....

:-)



xoxo,
miaMcK


p.s. sorry Ursh but ur album is not really poppin. what happened? the black leather outfits cloud ur musical judgement? get it 2gthr my dear. THANKS.

PLAYLIST: nothin on you...

in short? i like it.

feel good music.

this is what has been missing.



xoxo,
miaMcK




p.s. this Bruno character is def one to watch. bet on that.

PLAYLIST: the script

so i was recently watching regis and kelly one morning and this wonderful band performed. i immediately fell in love and had to go on a search to find the song they sang. "Break Even" is the song and i need to download it to my handy dandy blackberry asap. watch the vid below and u will understand my new obsession with them.




enjoy blogger babies!



xoxo,
miaMcK

PLAYLIST: underrated star

i dig Janelle Monae. i adore her female, andre 3000 aura she is emitting. this new joint?? DOPE DOPE DOPE!! when will she get recognized?? annnnd question, is she still with Bad Boy records??? *side eye* anywho....here is her new song Tightrope feat. Big Boi!



so many quotable lyrics in this joint! loooovin it!


enjoy blogger babies!


xoxo,
miaMcK