PLAYLIST: Umbrella Much???

as you all may know, i am on a slow journey of toleration for my dear Creepy Minaj. i have nothing against her image or who she is as a person....i think she is doing wonders for a lot of silly little girls' self-esteem (in her own twisted way). as far as talent goes, she's entertaining to say the least. i would never knock her hustle, cuz she IS doing it. but fan? not much.

and rihanna.....my boo rihanna. i ADORE this chick head to toe. she's the less amazing version of my Beyonce' adoration. #justSayin.

this song is IT for me....had me ready to put on some poppin lipstick, a freakum dress, & go BE in some club somewhere. YAAAAAAAAAAS!!!!!!!!! put my hand in the air & reject all the scumbags trying to get my attention. #soWhat cuz it's raining men!!!!!



"i aint even worried bout u homie cuz there's plenty mo fish in the sea.....they fallin like the rain, so we aint runnin out"

im bumping this hard until 2011 hits!!!!


enjoy blogger babies!



xoxo,
MiaMcK

LOCAL LOYALTY: it's been a long time coming....

I can't even begin to explain how proud i am and how i excited i am for my friend...my brother 10BEATS. He has put in SO much work...has been SO diligent and focused on making his dreams happen. The hard work is paying off and this is only the beginning.

Dom- you already know the IE is holding you down...your friends/family are supporting you 1000%. God has SO much more in store for you. Don't limit Him...you can do exceedingly, beyond, and ABUNDANTLY more. remain faithful to Him, humble, and grounded in the WORD. i love you and look forward to seeing you shine, shine, shine!!! GO!





xoxo,
MiaMcK


keep up with them on twitter:

@isquaremusic
@10beats

NEW VIDS: Creepy Minaj Comes With It.....

i have been bumping this song HARD for the past month so i am SO excited for the video. kudos to Nicki for keeping it simple....the video isn't cinematic genius or anything but it's SUCH a welcome change for her that it IS quite smart. the shower scene...the argument over disrespect...the pool scene...did Creepy Minaj take a page out of my diary or what???




her versatility is what's going to make me a fan.



xoxo,
MiaMcK

FRESH FROCKS: are YOU haute?

are you an up and coming designer....ahead of the fashion curve....needing more exposure....looking to solidify yourself as the next BIG thing?? If this is you...FOUR LA is "four" you for their FOURTH SATURDAY event!

Their "New Designer Contest" is taking place this month so hurry and read the information below and sumbit your fashionable little selves for this FREE exposure and experience!! go now!!

www.fourla.com is their website or email them: fouryou@fourla.com!

you can email me if you'd like me to send you the rules & regulation document so that you can have a copy for yourself: miamckinley@gmail.com


RULES AND REGULATIONS:













be fresh....be fashionable.



GOD luck!!



xoxo,
MiaMcK

THEME MUSIC: inspired to be SPEECHLESS

Dear woman reading this nursing a broken heart,

don't give up. as much as it hurts, as confused as you may be....don't give up on love. the sleepless nights WILL turn into peaceful evenings of slumber. the loss of appetite will gradually grow into an insatiable hunger for LIFE. we can't allow the tenderness of our hearts to harden our emotions. easier said than done, yes i know. this song undoubtedly helped me realize that LOVE really is amazing and i LOVED being in it. even if i was IN it alone, i gave 100% and i don't regret it at all. there is something extremely satisfying about being loyal to your man. it is sexy and WOMANLY to nurture, encourage, and keep your man happy.

it was my wholeness of self that allowed me to happily oblige the needs and desires of "him"....so i know that once i am whole again, it would be my absolute pleasure to do this again. next time, well...next time it is my most fervent prayer that "him" is appreciative & faithful. because as satisfying as it is to be loyal to your man, it makes it even more worthwhile when he is also loyal to you. "so good to meeeeeee" - Ciara.


so ladies, again i say....don't give up on love. don't become bitter. bind love and happiness around your neck & wear it as the most beautiful accessory. 1 Corinthians 13 is WORTH IT.

"Men need 2 feel needed...need to feel important. & it's hard 4 them 2 feel that way w a powerful woman" -Oprah

on this journey through life, love, hurt, and success....never dim your light in order for people around you to feel more comfortable. be confident in who you are. be secure in your worth. never compromise your morals in order to make it easier for someone else. your "Mr.GodSentHim2Me" will rise to YOUR occasion, will love & support you...he will turn HIS light up & lead your relationship to the height intended for it by God. never fear ladies, he is out there. don't go looking. busy yourself in the work of the Lord. busy yourself getting to the YOU you are called to be. secure your heart in God's hands and always always always trust your intuition.




xoxo,
MiaMcK






p.s. i also like the version of this song featuring The Dream.




#realWomanSh*t
"see I'm thankful 4 every time u wash my clothes, could have been anywhere in the world but instead ur right here.." -the dream

DISASTERS IN DATING: officially moving on....

it has been 28 days since i've seen him, and communication has been almost as scarce.
it's safe to say that it is time to officially move on. i am finally coming out of my 2 week funk and realizing that in order to get better i have to get moving. i've been torturing myself lately. visiting his twitter and facebook pages....i even looked at his blog knowing he RARELY updates that. i've even checked his website for new additions and revisions lol. but now, i realize that the more i check up on a life i'm no longer a part of...the more i will hurt. so instead of just going through the motions of my life, i will actively participate in it. i will consciously enjoy my friends and the time spent with them. i will come out of my own head & heart space in order to feel the sun, hear my laughter, and activate my smile.




the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.
the relationship is over.




*sigh* i had to say those words out loud, because just writing them doesn't seem to be enough to convince my heart that the relationship is in FACT....over. #ouch. today is my last day of contact. time to reprogram. my life must go on. this doesn't mean i won't hurt, cry, or miss him. this just means i am prepared to let go & let LIFE happen.

i'm good.....well, i'm getting back to being good.


this is me, officially moving on.


xoxo,
MiaMcK





Cyrah Austin Hawkins,
as much as i...no,WE ....
as much as we both wanted this to work, it didn't.
i won't place blame. we are both responsible for this failure.
we had some good times and i won't let the hurt of a broken heart
cause me to forget them. i pray that you first find and LOVE God.
then, in finding and forging your relationship with Him...i pray you find YOU.
i don't have to pray for you to find love, because i am sure that will come easily.
BUT, i do pray that the love is the epitome of 1 Corinthians 13 kind of love.
unconditional, forgiving, pure, comforting, honest, enduring.
i don't regret anything. i don't regret us. you helped me open my heart again.
i will forever be grateful to you for that.
u broke down my wall/guard & climbed right on in.
so thank you.
perhaps one day we'll be friends again.
but until then....
may wisdom, love, faith, happiness, courage, and favor never leave you.
i'll love you forever
& will always carry you in my heart.
your scent, your fingerprints, & our memories...will linger.

see you next lifetime baby.

& as always...be confident. be charismatic. be CYRAH....GYSO! *smile*




...faded pictures....



xoxo,
MiaMcK

p.s. this will be my last blog regarding him and this situation.






the end.....

THEME MUSIC: a GRENADE you'll Never forget

had your eyes wide open....why were they open?




thank you Bruno, i think i am beginning to really like you.


and to my bff @whenf....your GENIUS never ceases to amaze me. i can't wait for the world to experience you through your music.



delete pics.
cover scent.
love & lust.
but never forget.



xoxo,
MiaMcK

DEAR SUMMER: now that you're gone...

i am excited to welcome Fall.
the past two weeks i have been MORE than out of it.
the break up FINALLY really hit me....hard.
the energy was sucked right out of me.
dare i say i was tip toein' around some type of MINOR depression.
literally, my whole body hurt.
this morning....this early early morning i began to feel inspired.
in my weakness, i am beyond strong.
there, amidst the dark clouds, i see a glimmer of light.
YES!
people who know me, know that when i am in one place too long
i feel trapped. i like to get up and go at the drop of a dime.
i am the QUEEN of leaving.
not running....but experiencing new environments.
i am young....no kids, no relationship.
no ties. i can move freely.
as much as i LOVE the LA scene and living in Cali....
east coast living is necessary. EVERYONE should experience it sometime in life.
why not now?
dilemma. i have been sending out my rezzy A LOT so i know it will be getting hits soon.
this is why i am waiting until the end of October to officially transition outta here.
with this in mind, i was TOTALLY caught off guard when the west coast general manager for ALEXIS BITTAR called me last nite.
*smiling*
they begin interviews next week for their new west coast stores.
i am also heading to DC around the first week of October to pound the pavement in person.
needless to say, this will be a crucial month.
October pretty much determines whether i stay in LaLa land....
or begin a new adventure in the Chocolate City.



we shall see.....



xoxo,
MiaMcK

MY 2 CENTS: let the church prEy....

I am not even going to read the details of this Bishop Eddie Long scandal.
i will just pray.
it is not my job to pass judgment on the Bishop or the accusers.
i will just pray.
the Christian community is falling apart.
where are the wrinkle and spot free churches?
but as my Bishop always says,
we go to church for GOD not the people.
my faith in God isn't dependent on how perfect or imperfect
my pastor/bishop/priest is.
my faith in God comes from knowing Jesus as my personal savior.
#thatisall #thatiseverything
we are merely men.
we WILL fail.
when our spiritual leaders fall victim to their flesh,
that doesn't make me turn away from church or God.....
I DRAW NEARER.
reading these silly gossip blogs and the comments makes me sick.
so easily the devil is glorified.



i will pray for God to have the last laugh. to God be the glory.
my faith is in the almighty.



xoxo,
MiaMcK




i def posted a comment over on theybf.com
just because all of those people commenting were so ignorant and LOST.
makes me sad...what is our world coming to?

*cue Mary Mary* "i wanna gooooooo to HEAVEN!!!"

DISASTERS IN DATING: give me a moment...

old emails have me bugging out. a year ago my toes were touching the edges of new love. now the water in that pool is murky and uninviting.


still, i'm dying to swim.


breath held, underwater sluggishly swimming through it all. hoping the water hides these tears that keep falling.


drown already.
lungs filled with love.
suffocating on it.


one year ago he swore he'd follow me to Sheol Hell.
well i've been here painting my nails & still.....i'm alone.


i guess this is my long awaited break down. avoided it for so long and now it's wrapped around my whole body.


#iCan't.




xoxo,
MiaMcK






give me a moment to ummm grieve.
allow me to hurt, cry, & miss him freely.
i'm entitled to this.

THEME MUSIC: please return my call....

it's been too long since i've seen yo face.
since i smelled the fragrance of your perfume.
& i can't get a hold of myself no more.
i tried to play it cool, but im simply breakin breakin down....









only we know what we lost....





xoxo,
MiaMcK