POETICALLY INCLINED: fair weather....

never realized I was so cold, until summer came...

all of a sudden I began to feel again.


and I didn't realize it hurt so badly,


until the tears wouldn't stop falling.


let's be honest, I've been addicted to the pain you serve.


sick it seems, that the pain even felt good.


anything to feel connected,


to know that something still existed here.


like playing in the fallen leaves of autumn,


pleased to know beauty once flourished.


even if all that was left were barren branches.


unsure how  it happened, but I'm grateful to be free.


no dramatic exit. 


simply decided to no longer exist to you.


I've given me, wholly. 


allowed you to invade my most amazing spaces. 


mind. body. heart. spirit. 


it was you ...to the core of me.


but I grew weary, pretending to be blind to vibrant colors.


hues that looked a lot like lies and deception,


ignored rainbows of wasted time and disrespect.


all because I was obsessed with the rain.


passionate storms of you,


left parts of me absolutely damaged.


but I'm free.

and fairer weather is on the gloomy horizon.







xo,
McK

POETICALLY INCLINED: bottom line

I love you

when you piss me off, when you hurt me.

it doesn't fade or go away.

it hangs, suspended in the air like the lingering of a favorite fragrance.





and I love you.





xo, McK

DISASTERS IN DATING: I'm sorry.....

It's true, the power of an apology is real. I need one from you. Sorry for the lies, sorry for wasting my time. Perhaps, if you're sorry for hurting me...you can throw an apology in for that. What's crazy is not being able to tell you exactly how fucked up you are. The sheer disrespect for me, our friendship, our ....shared moments. That hurts most. It took months and months and months to get to this point of letting you go, you letting me go, letting go...completely. While it is such a huge relief to be out of the clutches of disappointment, it is insanely painful to lose a friend. you forgot my dopeness. Forgot to tell me I'm beautiful. And I'm pretty sure it slipped your mind to remind me that I'm amazing, that I'm special to you.... Because you used to know those things about me. Used to tell me those things. You should be sorry you forgot, but I don't think you are. How unfortunate. I will be fine. So will you. But I am tapping out. Decided to spend some time with me. Grind season starts now. I forgive you.....I don't even need your apology. Thank God we are done. I regret you. xo, Mia McK

LIFE AND SUCH: it aint fair.....

the way that i love, it just aint fair. give and give and give. and what? i can't even complain because i would not be Mia without loving how i do. i do without expectation of that same thing being done in return. and i don't ask for much, maybe i should. at 26 years old....i find myself over it. what ever "it" may be. i tried. and i'm okay being done. because i truly tried. the games that are currently being played can continue on.....without me. God first. then Mia. if your list of priorities don't mirror that, i have nothing for you. i'm done making excuses for how i've been treated lately. it's not okay, bottom line. there will be no dramatic display of feelings upon departure. there will simply be no more trying. the lack of CARE in this current situation is something i have NEVER experienced. every single guy that has told me he LOVES me...has shown an awesome amount of CARE for me as well. i've NEVER had a guy "love" me and not truly have my best interest at heart. this is new and uncomfortable and it isn't fair. momentarily blinded to what has been right in my face....this aint fair. this aint right. and i told him before that how i feel will never change, that wasn't a lie. my FEELINGS toward him won't change....but my availability to him, patience with him?? those things have changed. Julian, i love you. you are not ready to provide what i require. let me go. xoxo, MiaMcK

POETICALLY INCLINED: Japan, JKB Inspired

the shadows of clouds on the ocean.
all I can think about is you.
there is something so profound in soaring further than the point of which your eyesight can reach.
all I can think about is you.
in mere hours I spanned thousands and thousands of miles.
passed over millions of people, moments, situations, emotions, and cultures.
all I can think about is you.
5463 miles.
every inch, yard, mile that I travel away from you brings my heart closer..
you are literally all I can think about.
grow closer, grow better, grow with you.
because all I think about is you.

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there is no one that i want more than you.
i am in awe of all you do and all you are.
you frustrate me, you piss me off, you inspire me to be better.
i want your love.
because my love is all that i have to give to you.
take it, freely.


JKB inspired.



xoxo,
MiaMcK