TWITTER ME THIS: hiatus much?

i am currently on a break from twitter. no particular reason....just thought i'd focus less on the social networking scene & focus more on me. for instance, i have been able to put my random thoughts and outbursts on this blog and in my journal instead of limiting myself to 140 characters. Also, i have avoided the tendency to check up on him to see what he's doing, how he's doing, etc. I mean, if he wanted me to know.....he would let ME know. I am avoiding him altogether....especially via social networks.

so my blogger babies, if you feel the urge to get in contact with me. CALL ME.


let's get back to that. hear my voice instead of ALWAYS reading my words. granted, my words do flow nicely. *smiley face*

my Ruthi is also on this hiatus as well. we agreed to go until september 1st....i don't think she is gonna last. annnnnd i kinda feel like i may go even longer, just so i can get back in the swing of updating my blog and actually writing down my feelings/thoughts in my personal journal.


words are my therapy and i have a feeling i am going to need them A LOT.




xoxo,
MiaMcK



p.s. although, i do feel a nice twitter rant coming along. i may break my hiatus today....one day only!!!

PLAYLIST: what i'm listening to...

blame me for having faith in this relationship....




i don't know what this war's about, been through too much not to work it out.....i am your woman so show some respect & treat me as such...





i want this fiasco to end, so baby we can start all over again...

DISASTERS IN DATING: the proverbial break......up

i have heard fairytale stories as well as nightmares regarding couples who have gone on "breaks". from the couple who a break did wonders for, because they realized what they had in each other....to the couple who seen that a break UP was clearly what was needed and stayed apart. but how do you know what group you fall in? are your issues so profound that a break up is the only logical thing to do? or is the love so genuine that both parties are willing to put in the work to resolve issues and grow together.

what if you're a mix of both categories? what if you know the love has what it takes to work but the issues have consumed the relationship and it seems better to part ways than continue on a road leading to unhappiness.....*sigh* relationships suck. when you have been so far removed from the relationship mindset, it can be difficult to change your mind to the "us" and "we" instead of the "i" and "me".


how do we get back to our happy place when the road is hidden by the rubbish of miscommunication, resentment, anger, misunderstanding, etc??

how did we get so lost on this road that neither one of us can mapquest or googlemap the correct directions back to the good times? how do we find our way back? back to what though? this makes me wonder if we were ever happy or were we both wanting so badly for this long awaited union to work that we overlooked tell-tale warning signs? i just don't know anything anymore.


perhaps, parting ways IS what's best. how else am i supposed to feel when it seems as if i'm the only one willing to learn, change, and grow. so i suppose i'll seal this "Dear John" letter and let this burn.



xoxo,
MiaMcK












damn you XIII.....this was supposed to work.

QUOTABLES: proverbs never lie...

many a man claims to have unfailing love, but a faithful man who can find? - Proverbs 20:6



seems that even in the Bible it is known that love has little to do with being faithful. these are merely men we deal with, why do we put so much confidence in them? obviously, in relationships, love isn't enough. it takes much more than love to make 'em work.

fcuk love. give me respect....it goes much further. when you respect someone, you treat them in high regard. you can't say the same for love. often times the people we proclaim to love are the ones we hurt the most. so spare me the Lword & start serving me R-E-S-P-E-C-T in large quantities.

BUT, if love was thought of how the Bible teaches it, perhaps i would feel differently.

it's crazy that as highly as the Bible speaks of love...we treat it so badly. 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13....this passage is all about love, yet how many of us have read this and applied it to our lives. we take love for granted...we disgrace its meaning.

the first three scriptures talk about how if you have so much wealth, power, talent, etc and don't have love then you gain nothing. scriptures 4-7 define what love is....patient, kind. it does not envy or boast. it is not self-seeking....love ALWAYS protects, ALWAYS trusts, ALWAYS hopes, ALWAYS perseveres. talk about a tear-jerker. the Bible is the greatest love story ever! it is the WORD that says LOVE NEVER FAILS. so why do we have so little faith in it? so little respect for such a powerful thing? we toss this word around like there isn't GODLY meaning in it.

the passage then goes on to say that without love we can do things, but when perfection (love) comes, the imperfect disappears. we put childish thinking, reasoning, and acting aside. through love we become men and women. Faith, hope, and love.....love is the greatest.

i am truly inspired by this passage. it makes me want to be loved better. makes me want to love better. knowing these scriptures, how can you settle for anything less than the kind of love described in it. the kind of love that inspires you to be a better man/woman. the kind of love that encourages you to do everything better.


i want that 1 Corinthians 13 love.




xoxo,

MiaMcK

DISASTERS IN DATING: just another sad love song...

why do women feel the ridiculous need to listen to sappy love songs when they are feeling the aches of love?? is it not enough that your stomach is in knots and sleep brings dreams of him?

we are creatures of self torment i suppose.


oh well, press play and let that heart break....



what i am listening to:
Jaheim- Find My Way Back






xoxo,
MiaMcK


p.s. don't let the tears, frowns, & heartache consume you for too long. get back to your HAPPY!

POETICALLY INCLINED: Borrowing Rainboots....

"she wasnt prepared for the storm the first time,
so now she wears rainboots in the sunshine...." - Lite for B

Needed some rainboots cuz it started storming in July.
Heatwave in August, but my rain hasn't let up. sunny gray sky.
wear & tear on my boots had me slipping regardless of the resisting.
held my tongue for far too long, all in the name of submitting.
Sacrificed my peace of mind, just to keep the peace.
Relationship on its last leg, so he flew east.
Deserted the crime scene, prime suspect on the run.
CSI: North Hollywood. investigation done.
evidence collected.
scattered traces of love all over.
outline of a heart drawn on the bathroom mirror.
flakes of care & strands of compassion in combs & brushes.
the scent of passion laced in the sheets.
ghosts of good times still linger.
echoes
of laughter
extremely
vivid


...........flatline


and so here i am, summertime sniffles.
B brings me rainboots, no questions asked.
reinforce the rubber. cuz i'm not slipping anymore.

DISASTERS IN DATING: perception is the new reality

Just as in Hollywood how image is everything, in relationships it is perception that seems to hold so much weight. how do outside people view your relationship? Often times it is the world who sees things that we may not see or what may in fact not even be true. But just as a Christian desires for their Christ-like light to reflect to the world, wouldn't it be nice that your relationship's happy glow is seen as a beacon? Or are the flashing lights of your relationship really flares, signaling an emergency?

I feel that perception is so very important in relationships because you want your solid foundation to show so much that even the boldest male or female will think twice about trying to destroy it. The perception of solid ground should cause every side heaux to retreat. Perception should not be a front though....it should be reality.

If more men and women understood the importance of perception, certain actions would cease. Frequent communication with exes, text messages from the opposite sex, etc would all be null and void. I can only speak from a woman's point of view, so when I say that some GIRLS don't give a damn....know that there is nothing but truth in that statement. A simple text message to a guy is a crack in the foundation for a girl. Some girls will continue to disrespect a relationship because the guy in it allows them to do so.

Fellas, when was the last time you nipped inappropriate conversation in the bud because it could be perceived the wrong way by your girlfriend?? I am pretty sure 100% of guys would have a fit if their girlfriend had conversations with guys in the same manner that they had with girls outside of their relationship.

Love shouldn't have double standards. point blank period.
Do unto her as you would have done unto you.

If random girls perceive your relationship to be unstable, they will find the crack and dig deep. when that crack becomes a trench, what happens then? resentment. arguing. misunderstanding. diminishing trust. lack of communication.

Relationships require a responsibility that too many people lack. Maturity is also served in low doses.

Before you take another step in your relationship, think hard about what you have contributed to it. What have you been taking for granted? It is never too late to learn from your mistakes and correct them accordingly.

Don't let faulty perception be the death of amor.




xoxo,
MiaMcK

POETICALLY INCLINED: and i know this much....

sleepless in California
good rest evades me.
afraid that if my eyes close for too long
haunting images will be permanently etched under my eye lids.
nightmare-ish lullaby songs.
"yo side of the bed" on repeat & skippin.
im long gone & lost.
tryin to find my way back when i kiss u.
compass permanently pointing South.
Mary J wailing about how "im going down...."
been functioning on mute, screaming for attention.
clearly unheard.
your every action is met with my disapproving reaction.
can't get right.
giving while you take.
how did we even get here?
miscommunicating vital information.
i love you sounds like i tolerate you.
wires must be crossed.
must be static on the line.
their words mean more than mine?
caller id has got to be broken.
those break...not hearts.
unclear air, untamed fires are smokin.
all of this doesn't make sense.
& i don't understand most of it.
BUT....
i know this much.


Sheol Hell won't be the same without.
I'll burn with you and for you.
God save the "King".
cuz Lord knows he has the kind of stuff that looks like "my everything".
XIII...in my world, that means i love you. power that to the 13.




xoxo,
MiaMcK

PLAYLIST: I May Be Biased...

but im not stoooopid.
and if you don't listen to this song & then hit replay a few times after....
then YOU my dear friend are STOOOOOPID!

Drake...Jhene....written by Micah Powell. "July"
okay so just because i have known Micah (@micahfonecheck)basically my whole entire life, doesn't mean im passing off my opinion as FACT.
but FACT is, this song is DOPE boy fresh.

#thatisall
#thatiseverything




enjoy (on repeat) blogger babies!


xoxo,
miaMcK

RANDOM ISH: My New Obsession....

so as some of you may know, i'm FINALLY getting my toes wet in the fashion world....and i LOVE it. styling is def a passion of mine & interning at a fashion PR agency is allowing me the opportunity to learn this craft even more....hone & perfect it. im constantly surrounded by some of the most luxurious, beautiful, and expensive brands. im in heaven.

this brings me to couturious.com... a site where i can be as creative and quirky as i want. styling virtual models & getting inspiration from other aspiring stylists. so check it out! im SO addicted!!


if you all have any fashion questions....let me know and i will create a look for you. going to a wedding and dont know what to wear? first date? drop me your inquiries and i will style a virtual model and name the look after you.


go to COUTURIOUS.COM and look me up! MiaMcK


xoxo,
miaMcK

NEW VIDS: Find Your Unthinkable Love in the Morning....

I am not a super A.Keys fan right now (im OFF homewreckers & sidechicks) but i can't take away from the fact that she always comes with pretty good videos. This one is no exception. The song is kind of mediocre to me.... something a teen on the cusp of womanhood would sing about. But her vocals are nice and the video has an interesting story line. so Kudos A.Keys, kudos.





Robine Thicke is undoubtedly one of the hottest R&B artists out right now. Furthermore, he's one of the only CONSISTENT artists (regardless of genre) that releases good music. shout out to DropTheVibe.com for supplying me with all the good music on my BB months & months in advance. cuuuuz i have been listening to this joint since before his album dropped.




yay for videos with storylines! i want to be intrigued....entertained....engulfed by a video. Drake def accomplished this with FIND YOUR LOVE. he is still the most highly anticipated artist out. hands down. my only complaint?? Drake needs to lay off the long nites with snacks and liq....he's getting a tad pudgy. #justsaying.




enjoy blogger babies!


xoxo,
miaMcK